What Might I Gain?

Tormenting, Relentless, Racking, Pain

What good is it for? I have nothing to gain

It strips away my ability, to be productive in life

My desires as a mother, and the duties of a wife

The tears pour out uncontrollably

My lips sip the soothing wine

The disappointment is overwhelming

What I had dreamed of is no longer mine

Life progresses forward, dancing right on by

I long to be a part, instead all I can do is cry

My husband must now work twice as hard

To take care of his children and wife

The tensions surmount to incredible heights

The peace we once shared now turned to strife

My children cry” mommy, mommy

Won’t you please come out and play”

No I must reluctantly offer

Because of the pain I must lay

I fear my heart is breaking

I am certain it is crushing in two

How much more can I endure

What am I suppose to do?

My heart cry’s desperately to GOD

My speech is mute as I try to Pray

I don’t want to continue living like this

No..not one more day!

But louder than my anguish

Surfaces a gentle yet powerful voice

Listening intently I hear

“You Can Do This; You don’t have a choice”

I become alert that he loves me

And it is clear that I am to live

Even though I’ve lost everything

Feeling empty, with nothing to give